- Seriously, I could never have been more happy. On Saturday, I made things clear to Jessica. Indeed I still love her, and I'm certain that I want to be with her this time round, no matter what's gonna happen in the future. We parted with a hug and a kiss on the forehead. This is the second time I kissed her. I felt so blessed that she forgave me, and continue to accept me after so many things happened. I know that I should treasure her more this time round, and will try not to break her heart anymore.
Tomorrow is her birthday. And I'm gonna do something special. Something which I have never done before. This is the first time I'm doing something so big. With His strength in me, I believe that everything will go on smoothly. Today, I just gave her another surprise. I promised to give her a big pooh bear on her birthday. So I have to fulfill my promises. I bought the pooh bear and send it to her house directly. I didn't let her know that I'm doing this, because I want her to be surprised. Well, I don't know if she will be surprised ornot, but it doesn't really matter. I just afraid that she might be angry that I visited her house without seeking her permission. I hope she won't get mad.
And tomorrow is gonna be another long day. I'm gonna put candles at the field opposite her house, forming the word Happy Birthday Jess! I just pray that it won't rain tomorrow.
Now that I have decided to take things one step closer, I am also mentally prepared that mingli will find out sooner or later. And if she finds out, and wants to breaks us up, I know that I'm not gonna let go. I will still hold on to Jess. Unless Jess wants to let it go...
I just pray that everything will turn out alright.
`Sometimes @ 10:31 PM
