For me, i went back to work today also (though im on off). Want to know why? Cos im so freaking scare that i havent done the AOR for my boss.. And guess what? He's like pestering me every now and then about the AOR and the equipments and other stuff.. OMG! Does he even kno how to take a break at all? But im just too immune to his infectious gan jiongness.. Too used to it til i got totally no feeling over it.. Good thing he's not going to read this. Lol!

Hmm.. He's not THAT bad if u do stuff to please him. Really. I didnt tell him that i'll be in camp today. And there's a RSM parade on thursday (the actual day im suppose to return to work). So he sent me a message telling me that there will be a RSM parade. Well, thoughtful right? lol :) But i was really puzzled where he got that piece of information from.. cos he wasnt in camp too..

Oh well.. mayb he got internal spy or wat.. lol. Well, i wouldnt be surprised!

Ohh.. and to those who i talked to msn, i most probably wouldnt be on msn these few days.. sooo, dont miss me k? ;) Dun worry.. I'll miss u lots!! :)

Here's the story that i promise u Hazariah.

This happened to an 18 yr old boy 2 yrs back, when he was studing in this Junior College. Back then, he was in the volleyball team. And his coach was in-charge of coaching both the boys team and the girls team. And inside this girl's team, there was a little girl who was not noticed till THAT incident happen.

One day, during the training, the girls and boys team were training in the hall. The coach had decided to mix the boys and girls together and have a friendly competition. She was in my team, just right beside me. We wasnt communicating much cos we didnt really know each other. And our team kept losing points cos we lack this communication. THe coach saw it and shouted.

Coach : Hey! If the both of u dont start communicating with each other, i will call u two to hold hands during the game.

Both of us were so embarrassed. We were blushing and smiling and my teammates around were laughing.

Well, i thought the story ends here. But it didnt. A few days later, i saw her at the canteen. We were sitting just a few table away from each other. I know she was there, but i didnt want to look at her. I pretended to take out my phone and play games with it. But i realised that she was staring at my direction. So i looked back. And she looked away, trying to avoid my eyes.

Is she interested in me?or is she looking at the person behind me? If she is looking at the person behind me, then why does she have to look away when i look back?

I was really puzzled at that time. It was really a week later that i cant stand it anymore that i consult my friends.

Their advice : I think u shld give a try. Mayb she's interseted in u...

I thought for a while. Mayb its time for me to take some actions abt it. Ya, and so i did.

I got her number from one of my friends, who was a close friend of her. And that night, i begin to msg her. I tried to be friends with her 1st. But she didnt replied.

FOr the next few days i did the same thing. But there was no reply. Then i heard a commotion in school saying abt how i got her phone no. She didnt ask me directly, nor did i spoke to her abt it.

Then one day, i met her face to face at the parade square. I took a glimpse at her. But didnt dare to look at her, or talk to her. I felt that i was such a wimp!

At night, i continued to msg her, hoping that she will reply back. Then one day, she did. And that's wat she wrote :

I hope u can stop msging me...

All my hopes and dreams broke. I never felt such a deep pain in my heart before.

Isnt it fate that brought us together? Why didnt fate help us a bit more? Can fate really be trusted? Or has fate given up hope on me?

From that day on, I have totally given up on fate.. And i confined myself to my friends. No GirlFriend. I dont want to ever have that heart-breaking feeling again. And i dont like to see sad ending again. Its either a happy ending, or no relationship at all.

Well.. One things for sure.. Fate will only come to those who believe in it.. So if u want to get into a realtionship, start believing in it. ;)

Now i really appreciated if u dont make any necessary comment abt this entry cos im SENSITIVE! :)

It started raining from yesterday till now.. Though the rain did stopped for a while, it started again soon after.. Well i heard from my parents that whenever it rains on a special occasion, it means that heaven is actually crying. It may be something that all of us have done wrong or well, some of u may say that im over reactive. Heaven is trying to show us its grief, or mayb trying to punish us by making us stay at homw for these two days. Well trees didnt actually fall like wat wendy said, nor was there flood or any major catastrophy in my area..

well another grief news was the news abt Benjamin's father passing away. On the 31st DEC 2005.. He didnt get to see 2006. Heaven has decided to relive him from his suffering and brought him to heaven. Its kind of sad to lose a father when you are still young. And definately there's no one that can replace his father's position in his heart. What all of us can do, is to provide him with warmth and support so that he knows theres still people around him that cares.

Lets all give a one minute silence to Benjamin's father and may he live in peace.