- Celebrated Jess's birthday. The beginning part of the celebration was alright, but the ending wasn't quite as I had expected. We had dinner and Fish and Co at Dhoby Ghaut. I like the life band there, so I chose that location. Soothing music while having dinner. Then I called one of the musicans to sing a birthday to jessica. I could see that she is a little embarrassed, but it wasn't that bad. I even wanted to piggy back her, but she refused. Oh well...
The main surprise didn't really go as well as expected. I wanted to lay the candles, but the wind kept coming and I felt so hopeless. Dumb isit? Why didn't I think of the wind factor? This just sort of screwed up everything. Just feel sad, but nevermind. If there is a next time, I'll try harder.
Walk with god had been alright so far. I see myself progressing. And that's good news for me. I actually wanted to grow faster, with a steadily rate. But recently, I just felt half-hearted over things. I don't have the mood to do or concentrate on things. I don't really know what is happening to me. And my hair is beginning to drop. It doesn't happen in the past. This morning, I nearly met another car accident. The motorbike was so near to me, I thought its gonna hit me. Thank god it didn't. Though I do feel tired of living, I perserve on because I know that I'm livinng for a purpose. A purpose that god had given me. I'm still not very sure if becoming a cell group is one of my purpose, but I hope that god will give me relevations again soon. Life is hard living without a purpose...
`Sometimes @ 4:33 PM
