- Stories to share...
Let me 1st start with the one that's 2 nights ago. It was saturday night. I was in school. I went to the top storey of the MAE block and just sat on the ledge. Good thing about the school's ledge is that it does not have any railings. And so I sat there, staring into the night sky. It was beautiful. I could see lights from miles away. The wind was strong. I had both of my legs on the ledge. At that point in time, I wasn't thinking much. I just tell god, "Oh god, my life is now in your hands. If I lost my balance and fall off, then you might be hinting me that its time to end this life so that I can be with you in heaven. If I didnt fall off, then god, I pray that you give me a miracle, a breakthrough. Well, you know the outcome...
Then yesterday, it was after the service that I heard a voice calling out to me. It told me to go home. I wanted to follow the word. But I didn't. I didn't have the courage to face my mother. It was this morning that I saw a breakthrough. I finally had the courage to sit down and talk to her. It wasn't easy. I don't know how times I cried when I talked to her. Good thing is, I managed to make her understand how I feel. I really want to thank god for that. Everyday, I prayed to god for a breakthrough, for a miracle, and now finally, it came. Faith is indeed the thing you need in times like that. Well, I can't say that I have won the whole battle. Though she now allows me to go for service, she wants me to promise her that I won't get baptised. She was afraid that I, being the only son of the family, and the son of the eldest son of my grandparents, would not pray at their funeral when they die. And so, I guess I had to promise her that. In life, you gain some, you lose some. We can't possibly have the best of both world, can we?
I guess all this started because of the lack of communication in my family. I just hope that things keeps going better from here on.
Last but not least, I want to thank god for blessing me with friends that have supported me throughout this obstacle. And so, I shall continue to pray for the happiness for my family members and friends.
`Sometimes @ 12:14 PM
