- Sometimes I wonder... How can someone who used to be quiet grow out to be cheerful and outgoing? Wouldn't the person doing it feel unbearable not able to be himself/ herself? I don't know what is the reason why she is doing it...
Then I came to this conclusion that, what really matters is the fact that you make the people around happy by staying happy. And by doing so, you also make the people around you worry less about you.
But sometimes, its so tiring not able to be yourself. "The Christ of Faith" said that freedom of man is actually distancing yourself from god. And you have to be what He wants you to be. But outgoing? Talkative? Maybe i'm not interactive enough, maybe I need sometime to change. Or maybe its just that sometimes, I just can't to find topics to talk about. But sometimes, its that I'm so tired that I want to have sometime for myself.
But i'm trying very hard, Very hard, not to show the tired look in front of you. I just don't feel comfortable talking to people who aren't themselves. But I shall not reject them.
`Sometimes @ 12:57 AM
