- Guess what? My parents found out that I'm going to church yesterday. My mom literally forced the answer out of me. And I have to admit it. I don't feel like hiding it anymore. But now that the whole family knows about it, I have to secretly go for service in the future. Why not tell them the truth? That you prefer Christianity rather than Buddhism, that you love Christ? Well, they definitely won't accept the answer. I just know them too well, especially my mother. Like the story that mingli shared with me, her sister is as stubborn as my mother. Sometimes, people have the wrong mindset about Christianity. They could be due to rumours, news and media and other forms of propaganda that had been spreading around by the older generation, and they just have this fixed mindset that Christianity is bad.
And so she scolded:
"Once you change to Christianity, you can never change back to Buddhism."
"So next time when I die, who's gonna pray for me"
"How can you pray to the god of the ang mos' and not to the god of Chinese"
"If you want to become a 'shuo tou wu gui', then go ahead and be a christian."
Haiz. I didn't want to go any deeper into the conversation. Any deeper will only break both our hearts. And she is already old enough, I didn't want her to start worrying and quarrelling with me. Past experience of quarrelling with her has already given me enough bad memories. I just hope that her mindset will open up soon.
But somehow, I got a feeling that this is gonna take a while. But I know that if i'm able to overcome this obstacle, then the subsequent obstacles shouldn't be a problem to me. And so I shall pray.
`Sometimes @ 2:14 PM
