- Everyday, i come home with a tired face. I never had a good talk with her since my army days. And everyday, you see her, she is like.. " ok.. she's still at home. She havent go to work yet." Then you'll most probably hoped that she goes to work quickly so that you can have a little of peace. And the most common thing i'll do is hide in my small little room right after i come back and avoid any sort of conversation...
But today, when i finally took a good look at her, and had a conversation with her, i realised that she had actually grown much older. Those white hair that seems to increase with days, those veins or blood vessels that were protruding from her thighs and legs, those hunched backs, and those winkled face.. it made me feel very 'xin suan'. Having the thought that she might actually leave me one day terrifies me. Im not prepared not let her go yet.. not til she stops working and enjoys her retirement. Not til i've fully repay my debts for her.
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Ever thought of reliving ur life again? I have. And i wanted it so badly cos my life was a disaster. So many things that i hope i didnt do.. so many things that i hope i could have done or done better. Then, I'll have a perfect life. Thats sounds so great.. but it'll never happen. Not til someone invents the time machine or something...
`Sometimes @ 1:45 PM
