- hmm... NTU medical checkup.. Kayaking.. Cohesion...
Went to the singapore river yesterday. It was really cooling and the scenery was really nice at night. Just the place for a romantic couple to go on a date. Just too bad Ye and wong doesnt know how to appreciate it. I was being dragged out of that place.. literally.
Kayaking is getting really boring for me. I have to kayak at least once every week, sometimes more..
Sometimes, i think that we are just underpaid, overworked slaves for the army. They want so much from us, and yet so little recognition we will received. Some people just dont treat us like humans sometimes. I wonder why people signed on in the army...
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I seriously dont know wats wrong with.. really. Whenever i see girls, i'll try not to look at them.. yes, i admit im timid, coward or watever u can call me. I started to get scare of girls after so many stuff has happened. I dont even know if i can or if want to get a girlfriend. I got this feeling that pretty girls are too good for me cos im not handsome enough for them. I know u know how i feel, and i cant help it but to feel that way. And normally the only solution for me is to try to ignore them, dont look at them, and dun talk to them where possible. Very sad that i've become like that.. Why?
Without girlfriend i feel lonely, cos i dun really have close friends around. All i do is try to act or bleand into them. That's why i say life is a theatre... really. But with girls around, u will feel troublesome( that's actually a excuse for me not to get attached). and i seriously need someone who can really listen to all my crab without any comments or regrets. I just need this one person in this world, and yet its so hard to find... WHY?
Without girlfriend i feel lonely, cos i dun really have close friends around. All i do is try to act or bleand into them. That's why i say life is a theatre... really. But with girls around, u will feel troublesome( that's actually a excuse for me not to get attached). and i seriously need someone who can really listen to all my crab without any comments or regrets. I just need this one person in this world, and yet its so hard to find... WHY?
`Sometimes @ 8:26 PM
