Well.. another sad ending... :( (if u know what i mean, then u have understand me well ;) )
Im just a contradicting piece of shit.. Here i am encouraging others to carry on and not to give up on a relationship.. but i myself have no courage to carry on or even start one.. Let's just say that i have seen enough of these relationships..
My life is getting more and more meaningless each day. I no longer is the man i used to be. Is this caused by the Army? Or is it just me? Ever since i joined the Army, i've drifted away from from my friends, my family, and myself. I no longer understand myself anymore.. Im like fencing myself against the world.. even to my closest friends.. Just feel sad that nobody in the world understand how i feel.. Nobody knows what im thinking.. Nobody touches my heart.. Mayb i have seen enough of the ugliness of this world..
Hmm.. and no.. Im not really sad abt it.. I just feel... empty...
Good thing i have a bear with me :) and whenever i looked at it or hugged it, i felt loved.. Hmm and im not gay.. lol :)
`Sometimes @ 7:56 PM
